So...Is this love ...? Love is eternal... love is tender.. love is great.. love is kind..love is irresistible.. Love hopes.. love feels like heaven.. love trusts.. love knows.. Love is beautiful.. love is hard.. love is precious.. Love is what you need.. love is what you give.. Love is everything...
Η λογική εντοπίζεται στην καρδιά του παροξυσμού, εκεί όπου η τρέλα το σκάει τρέχοντας μέσα από τη διχοτομημένη ψυχή. Ξέρω τον εαυτό μου. Βλέπω τον εαυτό μου. Η ζωή μου πιάστηκε σε έναν ιστό λογικής Υφασμένο από έναν γιατρό για να αυξάνεσθε και πληθύνεσθε υ/ημείς οι λογικοί. Στις 4.48 Θα κοιμηθώ. Ήρθα σε σένα ελπίζοντας ότι θα γιατρευτώ. Είσαι ο γιατρός μου, ο σωτήρας μου, ο παντοδύναμος κριτής μου, ο ιερέας μου, ο θεός μου, ο χειρουργός της ψυχής μου. Και εγώ είμαι, ναι, η προσήλυτή σου στην λογική. ------ να επιτυγχάνω στόχους και φιλοδοξίες να ξεπερνώ εμπόδια και να επιτυγχάνω υψηλές επιδόσεις να αυξάνω τον αυτοσεβασμό με την επιτυχή άσκηση του ταλέντου να υπερνικώ τους αντιπάλους να ασκώ έλεγχο και επιρροή στους άλλους να υπερασπίζω τον εαυτό μου να υπερασπίζω τον ψυχολογικό μου χώρο να δικαιώνω το εγώ να προσελκύω την προσοχή ναι φαίνομαι και να ακούγομαι να συγκινώ, να καταπλήσσω, να γοητεύω, να αιφνιδιάζω, να διεγείρω, να ψυχαγωγώ, να διασκεδάζω ή να ξελογιάζω τους άλλους να είμαι ελεύθερη από κοινωνικούς περιορισμούς να αντιστέκομαι στην καταπίεση και στον καταναγκασμό να είμαι ανεξάρτητη και να δρω ανάλογα με τις επιθυμίες μου να περιφρονώ τους τύπους να αποφεύγω τον πόνο να αποφεύγω την ντροπή να ξεπλένω παλιές ταπεινώσεις αναλαμβάνοντας εκ νέου δράση να διατηρώ τον αυτοσεβασμό μου να καταστέλω το φόβο να ξεπερνώ την αδυναμία να ανήκω να είμαι αποδεκτή να πλησιάζω και να επικοινωνώ ευχάριστα με τους άλλους να συνομιλώ φιλικά, να λέω ανέκδοτα, να ανταλλάσσω συναισθήματα, ιδέες, μυστικά να επικοινωνώ, να συνομιλώ να γελάω και να κάνω καλαμπούρια να κερδίζω τη στοργή του επιθυμητού Άλλου να προσκολλώμαι και να παραμένω πιστή στον Άλλον να απολαμβάνω αισθησιακές εμπειρίες με αυτόν τον καθεξόμενο Άλλον να τρέφω, να βοηθώ, να προστατεύω, να ανακουφίζω, να παρηγορώ, να υποστηρίζω, να νοσηλεύω ή να θεραπεύω να με τρέφουν, να με βοηθούν, να με προστατεύουν, να με ανακουφίζουν, να με παρηγορούν, να με υποστηρίζουν, να με νοσηλεύουν ή να με θεραπεύουν να σχηματίζω αμοιβαίως ευχάριστες, μόνιμες, συνεργατικές, και ανταποδοτικές σχέσεις με τον Άλλον, με έναν όμοιο να με συγχωρούν να με αγαπούν να είμαι ελεύθερη ---
============================================================= Sanity is found at the centre of convulsion, where madness is scorched form the bisected soul. I know myself. I see myself. My life is caught in a web of reason spun by a doctor to argument the sane. At 4.48 I shall sleep I came to you hoping to be healed. You are my doctor, my saviour, my omnipotent judge, my priest, my god, the surgeon of my soul. And I am your proselyte to sanity. --- to achieve goals and ambitions to overcome obstacles and attain a high standard to increase self-regard by the successful exercise of talent to overcome opposition to have control and influence over others to defend myself to defend my psychological space to vindicate the ego to receive attention to be seen and heard to excite, amaze, fascinate, shock, intrigue, amuse, entertain, or entice others to be free from social restrictions to resist coercion and constriction to be independent and act according to desire to defy convention to avoid pain to avoid shame to obliterate past humiliation by resumed action to maintain self-respect to repress fear to overcome weakness to belong to be accepted to draw close and enjoyably reciprocate with another to converse in a friendly manner, to tell stories, exchange sentiments, ideas, secrets to communicate, to converse to laugh and make jokes to win affection of desired Other to adhere and remain loyal to Other to enjoy sensuous experiences with cathected Other to feed, help, protect, comfort, console, support, nurse or heal to be fed, helped, protected, comforted, consoled, supported, nursed or healed to form mutually enjoyable, enduring, cooperating and reciprocating relationship with Other, with an equal to be forgiven to be loved to be free ---
....and this is maybe the end of love...maybe by an expressionism view... or maybe just when the end comes and somehow you feel alive ,strong and full of love.. whatever it is, it's strong,crazy and especially dedicated to my Death..
A piece of advice :take a deep breath and start reading...
'' And I want to play hide-and-seek and give you my clothes and tell you I like your shoes and sit on the steps while you take a bath and massage your neck and kiss your feet and hold your hand and go for a meal and not mind when you eat my food and meet you at Rudy's and talk about the day and type up your letters and carry your boxes and laugh at your paranoia and give you tapes you don't listen to and watch great films and watch terrible films and complain about the radio and take pictures of you when you're sleeping and get up to fetch you coffee and bagels and Danish and go to Florent and drink coffee at midnight and have you steal my cigarettes and never be able to find a match and tell you about the tv programme I saw the night before and take you to the eye hospital and not laugh at your jokes and want you in the morning but let you sleep for a while and kiss your back and stroke your skin and tell you how much I love your hair your eyes your lips your neck your breasts and sit on the steps smoking till your neighbour comes home and sit on the steps smoking till you come home and worry when you're late and be amazed when you're early and give you sunflowers and go to your party and dance till I'm black and be sorry when I'm wrong and happy when you forgive me and look at your photos and wish I'd known you forever and hear your voice in my ear and feel your skin on my skin and get scared when you're angry and your eye has gone red and the other eye blue and your hair to the left and your face oriental and tell you you're gorgeous and hug you when you're anxious and hold you when you hurt and want you when I smell you and offend you when I touch you and whimper when I'm next to you and whimper when I'm not and dribble on your breast and smother you in the night and get cold when you take the blanket and hot when you don't and melt when you smile and dissolve when you laugh and not understand why you think I'm rejecting you when I'm not rejecting you and wonder how you could think I'd ever reject you and wonder who you are but accept you anyway and tell you about the tree angel enchanted forest boy who flew across the ocean because he loved you and write poems for you and wonder why you don't believe me and have a feeling so deep I can't find words for it and want to buy you a kitten I'd get jealous of because it would get more attention than me and keep you in bed when you have to go and cry like a baby when you finally do and get rid of the roaches and buy you presents you don't want and take them away again and ask you to marry me and you say no again but keep on asking because though you think I don't mean it I do always have from the first time I asked you and wander the city thinking it's empty without you and want what you want and think I'm losing myself but know I'm safe with you and tell you the worst of me and try to give you the best of me because you don't deserve any less and answer your questions when I'd rather not and tell you the truth when I really don't want to and try to be honest because I know you prefer it and think it's all over but hang on in for just ten more minutes before you throw me out of your life and forget who I am and try to get closer to you because it's beautiful learning to know you and well worth the effort and speak German to you badly and Hebrew to you worse and make love with you at three in the morning and somehow somehow somehow communicate some of the overwhelming undying overpowering unconditional all-encompassing heart-enriching mind-expanding on-going never-ending love I have for you....''
So...Is this love ...?
Love is eternal... love is tender.. love is great.. love is kind..love is irresistible..
Love hopes.. love feels like heaven.. love trusts.. love knows..
Love is beautiful.. love is hard.. love is precious..
Love is what you need.. love is what you give..
Love is everything...
The Other End Of Love, The End We Love by airamg, journal
The Other End Of Love, The End We Love
....and this is maybe the end of love...maybe by an expressionism view...
or maybe just when the end comes and somehow you feel alive ,strong and full of love..
whatever it is, it's strong,crazy and especially dedicated to my Death..
A piece of advice :take a deep breath and start reading...
'' And I want to play hide-and-seek
and give you my clothes
and tell you I like your shoes
and sit on the steps while you take a bath
and massage your neck
and kiss your feet
and hold your hand
and go for a meal
and not mind when you eat my food
and meet you at Rudy's
and talk about the day
and type up your letters
and carry yo